7:43 pm - June 26, 2004
I miss Jordan
Today has made me ridiculously sad for no reason in particular.
After spending the night at Britt's with Kim and her (and Deugan temporarily), I came home. We watched two movies, went to Steak n Shake and just enjoyed ourselves. Kim and I fell asleep kinda early.
I kinda bummed around the house for a little before finally taking a shower. I was so ... just ... depressed while I was in the shower. Something about taking showers can make me really sad. I guess it's because it gives me so much free time to actually think about life without interruptions, and I don't like life much of the time.
I eventually made myself get ready and I went to the library. I got some more books...I hope they're not sad because, really...that's the last thing that I need.
Then I came home and my mom, my aunt, my sister, and I went to go and see the Notebook. Girls, you should definitely go see this. It's one of the best movies I have seen in a long time. I loved it, and I want to have it on DVD so I can watch it and just cry all over again.
After I got home, my dad told me that Jordan had called, so I called and talked to him in Colorado. He was kinda worn out and was moving into his room while I talked to him. Then he left for dinner and we decided to talk tomorrow. I got to the end of our conversation, and when he said "I love you" I choked up and was barely able to get out the rest of the phone call. And as soon as I hung up, I just kinda buried my face in my arms and cried. I miss him a lot already, and I feel like crap thinking that he's gone already.
Tonight will be spent moping.
Love Always,
Alison
