1:22 pm - July 14, 2004
Party tomorrow!
Ahhh...being home alone is a wonderful feeling.
I did go to Bible Study on Sunday evening, and Steve was definitely there. Afterward, I went to DQ with Joe, Bernie, Matt, Gary, Britt, Steve, and Nick. Let me just say that I have missed Gary. That kid cracks me up! I think I'm like, the punching bag of Bible Study. Bernie and Matt really seemed to enjoy making fun of me.
Monday, Monday...uhm...
I stayed home because Dad was leaving the next day, but he spent most of the night in the garage building his plane.
So I just watched my Monday evening of TV. Boring, yes.
Tuesday, I went to Forward, and I was in one of my anti-social moods and not really in the mood to be there. So afterward, I was ready to leave because people were going to Taco Bell, and I can't handle that smell. And Britt tried to get me to go to Joe's to watch Butterfly Effect. But Joe didn't invite me himself, so I felt like I would be intruding. No one seemed to understand this.
I struggle a lot with wanting people to like me. This is why I didn't want to go. I don't want to be one of those people that happen to overhear someone else's plans and kind of invite themselves along, when no one really wanted them there in the first place. Plus, I don't think Joe cares for me all that much. So I didn't feel like making myself more uncomfortable than necessary.
I was halfway out the door when Stephen stopped me, and after about 10 minutes, convinced me to go to Steak n' Shake with him, Amanda, and Travis. Tansy and Mike ended up coming with us (and my sister) as well. We went, we ate, we had a ridiculous untalented waitress. Then we went back to Amanda's and watched the Bourne Identity. It was a peaceful evening, and I felt better after all of that.
Tonight...I think will be an evening with Mom and Casie. I kinda want to go and rent Butterfly Effect, but we'll strike that notion. I forgot that Casie has dance. (Mom just called.) So Mom and I are going to watch Love, Actually I think. Or maybe two hours of Smallville!!!
Anyway, I'm off.
I miss Jordan. Two weeks until Colorado!
Love Always,
Alison
