7:32 am - August 23, 2004
In two days, I can't look back
It's pathetic that I usually have little recollection of what has happened over the past couple of days.
I'm pretty sure that Saturday I slept almost all day. I got up at 10:30, but if you needed me at 2:00, I was asleep again. Oh well. I needed it.
Sunday, I went to my last church services of home for a while. I got to heard David back for the first time in a month at MCUMC, and then I went to my last Bridge. We sang my favorite song, so I was happy. I kinda wish Danny had been preaching, but it's okay.
So I came home and...whaddaya know, I fell asleep. Later that evening, Bryan came over and we watched The Princess Bride and Pay It Forward. That was our good-bye for a couple of months, and I did what I always do. But oh well, I can't help it. It's not even necessarily saying goodbye as it is realizing that on Wednesday...nothing's the same anymore. I can't go back to high school and have a perfectly set routine every day, and come home to my parents and this house every night and sleep in my bed. I have to move on, and sometimes I think I'm not capable of doing it. But I'm afraid to let on to my family that I'm a little bit scared of all of this. They're taking it hard enough as it is. I don't want them to know I'm afraid.
Today, is Alison's day of shopping. That's right. I'll be at Castleton, spending my birthday money all day. Well, until 2:00, and then I'll leave to go and get my sister. I need to say good-bye to Brandon as well. But if he's with Ashley, I'll probably just leave it at nothing. Off to the shower to get ready for shopping.
Love Always,
Alison
