2:45 pm - January 01, 2005
Resolutions!
Woo for 2005! Time for Resolutions for next year.
1.) Keep a 3.3 GPA. That should be easy, seeing as how I have a 3.876 right now.
2.) Take better care of myself. I get stressed out and sick a lot, and I just don't think I'm taking care of myself as well as I should. I don't get enough "me time."
3.) Get back in shape! I was in shape while I was coaching the Howe kids, but now I need to start running every other day hopefully. I know that I'll be doing Pilates with the girls and that will make my abs and all that look good for Barbados, but I miss being able to run...and run...and run. I love to run.
4.) Get a job! Yeah, who would believe I'm actually thinking about getting a real job? But this summer, it's necessary. So I plan to get a job and actually make money. So then I won't be such a spoiled little Daddy's Girl, like I am right now. Hehe.
5.) And lastly, it's mostly to be better to my friends and boyfriend. I just don't feel like I'm that nice of a person, and I always make this resolution, and I always try, but it just never feels good enough. I don't feel like I do enough for the people that matter most to me. I absolutely love Jeannie, Kristen, Britt, Kim, Jordan, Peter, Eric, Brian, Steve, and everyone else. I don't know wht I suck. Sigh.
Now for my favorite part. Checking up to see how I did on last year's resolutions! Hooray!
1.) I picked a college. Duh.
2.) I worked that semester. Graduated first. Woo me!
3.) I was back in shape during tennis and coaching but not so much any other time. That's why it is again, a resolution.
4.) I cut down on the cussing really well this summer, but it's picked back up again since school has started. I'm still working with that on a day-to-day basis.
5.) Be nicer to people...I kinda covered that already.
6.) Pick and choose relationships. I certainly did that. Even though I said that I didn't need to leave behind the people from high school, that's what I did. And wow, life is better. High school was a bunch of ridiculous people that I realize now that I am better off without. I still miss the "good gang." The group of people that I wish I had spent my time with, but didn't. We hang out from time to time, but I'm in love with my new friends. And I'm glad for that.
The teeth and mouth are doing better for the first time today. Monday through Friday they hurt like hell. It was not fun. Today hasn't been so bad. I have had difficulty sleeping on my bed, so I've slept on the couch every night since I've gotten my wisdom teeth taken out. It has worked out better for me.
Thursday, I went to Vincennes with Jordan, and we visited Andy with Steven, Adam, and Megan. It was a lot of fun. We went to the Black Buggy for dinner that night as a group, along with Caroline and Chris. I invited Jeannie and Nick, and they met up with us at the restaurant. Jeannie and I were wearing the same shirt and boy were we cute! I miss her so much. We just sat and talked and talked and talked. Jordan didn't want us to steal while he was there, so we left our beloved horse and buggy thingy there. Dangit. Boys with morals, who needs them?
I realize now that I am tired of dwelling on something that happened in the past. If I could forget it and move on, I would. I have thought about it for far too long, and I have been angry about it for far too long. I just want it to be over. I want to cut this person completely and totally out of my life. I don't want see them ever again. I don't want to be walking to class and see them; I don't want to walk in the dining hall and see them. I just want them to go home and stay there, which they might as well anyway. I have never encountered a person so hateful, a person so hurtful, someone who could treat me the way they did and appear to have no remorse for it. Ugh, I just wish I could cut them out of my life completely.
Love Always,
Alison
