8:21 pm - January 07, 2005
Stupid, stupid people
Last night was a blast. I went out with Joe, Eric, Alex, Bryan, Steve, Brinny, and Kim. We went to SNS where we had like, the greatest waitress ever. She was hilarious, whether it was calling Joe "Curly," making fun of Alex for ordering ice, or laughing at the fact that we wanted more things to color on. I enjoyed her. We should have asked her to come bowling with us.
So then we went bowling at All-Star because stupid Motown wasn't open. And we spent too much money, but we had fun. And everyone got to see my complete and total collapse in the second game. I didn't "Step up and play with the big boys" like I was supposed to, but oh well. Then we came back here and watched Anchorman and apparently disturbed my entire family. But that's okay. It was a lot of fun.
Today my mom called and said she would take me shopping. So she picked me up. We went to the hospital with my Grandma Macy and left her to visit with my Papaw. He looks so...I don't know. I don't like seeing people hooked up to IV's and in hospital beds. The IV's made me shudder. They were disturbing.
So then we went to Shoe Carnival. I got amazing new "sneakers." They don't have laces, which just makes them easier for me to slip on! Woowoo! So then I got 2 more pairs of pants and 2 shirts for Barbados! I want to get that skirt that me and the girls found at Beach Baby in Greenwood for the beach as well. But we'll see. I need to remember to save my money a little. I have $60 saved, which is only $120 there. And if I have to pay for half of my meals...that's not nearly enough!
Tomorrow I think I'm going ice skating with the cool kids. AKA Brinny, Kim, and Steve. I hear Deugan is coming, as well. This ought to be...interesting.
I miss school so bad right now. I'm totally slipping back into nerd mode. I just want to start my new classes and be happy! I can't wait for my books to get here to the house! Yay! See...nerd mode. I also am dying to see my girls and of course...my boys. I'm going with Jeannie to pick Baloney up from the airport on Sunday afternoon. I can't wait! I love picking people up in the airport! Really, I've just picked up Jordan, but oh well. I can't wait! And then when Peter and Eric get back...wow, I'm going to die. I'm so excited.
Anyway. Break has been good for me. It's made me less pissed off, less shitty. I don't want to think about this situation anymore. I wish I could force people out of my life. I don't know...I just don't want to go back to school and fall into my old patterns. It pisses me off to think that I'm like this, and I hate it. I hate myself when it comes to this. Bashing the situation is only helpful on the exterior. I don't say what I'm really thinking, don't explain that the intense hatred that I feel because of everything that has gone down. I want to put almost this entire first semester behind me because I've gotten almost no good out of it. Steve said last night that the first semester of college was the most fun you'll ever have. I HAVE TO DISAGREE. I have enjoyed very little of it.
I loved coaching at Howe. I loved getting so close with my girls. I loved getting to know Peter and Eric. And that's really about it. That's all I've enjoyed. I hated my classes last semester. I'm just glad that it's over.
Love Always,
Alison
